Fatty forever...that may just be me.
This morning one of the ladies that works in my office brought in a bunch of Easter candy she didn't want at her house. A giant freaking bowl of chocolate!!! I was in the kitchen when she came in and sat it down, I sooooo very casually looked at it when I walked past on my way back to my desk...then I sat and fantasized, I schemed. For four hours I held out, but I finally lost the war. I made two more 'recon' trips to the kitchen, it was like freaking Mission Impossible when I went in for the snatch. On trip number one I spotted the Cadbury Egg, on trip two someone else was in there. I went back a third time, looked around and grabbed that little sucker.
Then it got even worse. Already I am feeling humiliated and defeated, so why not just compound that!! I TOOK IT TO THE BATHROOM TO EAT IT!!!!!!!! In the effing bathroom!!!!!!! Sweet baby Jesus, I am a crackhead. Hiding in the effing s**tter with my little foil wrapped bundle of crack. I scarffed that thing down so fast it made my pouch hurt and the whole time I was cussing at myself.
I am just 10days out from surgery and already sabotaging my success. I don't want to tell Peaches and I tell him everything. I know he won't be mad or make me feel bad, but it's like sharing my humiliation out loud makes it more permanent and real. So I am telling you all and logging it in MFP, all 150 calories and 25 GRAMS OF SUGAR!! For eff's sake the whole thing only weighs 39 grams. UGGGG, what the efifity eff did I just do and more importantly why the effity eff did I do it?
I am also having a hard time getting my water in this week, I do really well at work. Keep that mug in front of me all the time, but at home I get distracted. I have not hit 64oz in the last two days. I will be working on this today, working diligently! Also I will be talking myself out of the 200yard walk to Target to see if they have any Cadbury eggs left on clearance, because that's really what I want to do.