After two long weeks of putting everyone else first I am taking some time for me today!! There has been a HUGE amount of drama with Peaches' family and that on top of some crazy work deadlines has kept me hopping and grumpy for entirely too long. I have decided that his mom (B) is never going to change (stop drinking and abusing prescription drugs) and as long as we know his little sister is safe then we have done our job. Peaches' mom has made a series of poor choices that resulted in her being homeless and admitted to the hospital with liver failure at the age of 56. The saddest part is she has a 13yr old daughter (G) that she has continually put in horrible situations. After this last crash Peaches' and his brother sought custody of their little half sister and were awarded it. Since then it has been nothing but guilt trips, lies and piles of BS from B. I need to realize I CAN'T fix her. So I am letting go, I know the G is safe and happy and well taken care of, that is what really matters to me.
Whew! It feels good to say that. I just hope I can keep myself convinced.
Now, on to me and my day. I am not doing anything I don't want to today. I am going to the movie with my girlfriends, What to expect when you're expecting, sitting on the couch watching TV and blogging. That's about it!! I also have reached my first goal of 20lbs lost and will be rewarding myself with a Shellac pedi on Tues afternoon. I still do not feel restriction, I can and have eaten bread, rice, lettuce all with no ill effects. This does mean that I have to use more of my willpower when it comes to not over indulging or snacking but I am determined to lose weight and this has been going pretty well. My trainer is also kicking my ass A LOT!! Last Monday I was feeling tired and grumpy, I tried to not go to the gym but I found myself pacing around my house, restless. Finally I recognized that I was angry at myself for not working out and went. After I got home I felt SOOOOO much better about life and myself in general. I like the weak legs feeling I have after squatting and lunging!
Here are some recent stats, still losing my tatas at an alarming rate but I am happy to note that Hot Duchess finally decided to show up to the party and give a little up.
|Peaches assures me that even though Hot Duchess is not losing much around my body she is lifting a lot. He used to not be able to see my hoo-hoo at all, HD hung down so low she almost rested on my thighs. Now he can see all of my hoo-hoo and more!! HD refusing to give up more inches still makes it hard to find pants that fit, they can either fit in my waist and ass and be TIGHT on my gut or fit my gut and look like I am carrying a load in the butt. My trainer assures me that we are giving HD a run for her money and she will start to disappear soon.
On my two month bandiversary I will post some side-by-side pics so you all can enjoy the my newly exposed hoo-hoo area!